Today was a difficult day for my patience level. I’m not sure what made it so different than any other day but for some reason it was. The fact that I haven’t received my notification to take my certification exam coupled with the fact that I still don’t have a clue as to where I will be employed just sent me over the edge.
I spent most the day in a fog, crying endlessly. I felt worthless and unorganized. Then a phone call…a phone interview is scheduled for tomorrow afternoon. Then after crying some more because my patience had flown out the door, I find my bible verses.
The first note card is titled: When doubt creeps in remember…
2 Cor. 10: 5. They (our weapons) destroy arguments, and every defense that is raised up to oppose the knowledge of God. They capture every thought to make it obedient to Christ.
And if that wasn’t good enough to wake me up and put an abrupt halt to my pity party, I also had James 1: 5 But anyone who needs wisdom should ask God, whose very nature is to give to everyone without a second thought, without keeping score. Wisdom will certainly be given to those who ask. 6 Whoever asks shouldn’t hesitate. They should ask in faith, without doubting. Whoever doubts is like the surf of the sea, tossed and turned by the wind. 7 People like that should never imagine that they will receive anything from the Lord. 8 They are double-minded, unstable in all their ways.
So, I pull myself together and realize patience will not come to me over night nor will I wake up and have it daily. I have to ask for it daily. But it sure is nice to have these cards in unexpected places. Yes, I know people say to paste them where you can see them daily, but that is kind of like pictures on the wall. You get used to them being there and they simple become part of the décor.
Another one I read was Phil. 3: 12 it’s not that I have already reached this goal or have already been perfected, but I pursue it, so that I may grab hold of it because Christ grabbed hold of me for just this purpose.(to be a PNP) 13 Brothers and sisters, I myself don’t think I’ve reached it, but I do this one thing: I forget about the things behind me and reach out for the things ahead of me. 14 The goal I pursue is the prize of God’s upward call in Christ Jesus. (I’m not doing this to be a PNP….I’m doing this to fulfill God’s calling on my life.)15 So, all of us who are spiritually mature should think this way and if anyone thinks differently, God will reveal it to him or her. 16 Only let’s live in a way that is consistent with whatever level we have reached.
These verses rounded out my meeting with God:
Ecc. 11:5 Just as you do not understand how a child I formed in the womb you will never understand the mystery at work in all of God’s ways
Rom 8:38 I could be sure that every detail of my life and love for God is worked into something good. God is always at work for good of everyone that loves him.
2 Cor. 9:8 God will provide all I need. I will always have more than enough to do good things for others.
Ps. 94:11. God knows my plans are worthless, a mere breath, useless and a shallow. His plans have a greater purpose.
Jer. 29:11. For I know the plans I have for you says the lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you plans to give you a future and hope.
Ps. 9:10 I know your name and I trust in you for you do not abandon me when I search for you. You are my fortress in times of trouble. (I can relax when I am with you ; where you have called me).
Ps 37: 4-7 Do what the Lord wants and He will give you the desires of your heart. Let the Lord lead you and trust Him to help. Then it will be clear as the noon day sun that you were right. Be patient and trust the Lord. Don’t let it bother you when all goes well for those who do sinful things.
Ps. 37: 23 If you do what the Lord wants he will make certain each step you take is sure. The Lord will hold your hand and if you stumble you still won’t fall.
It’s the word that’s getting me through….even on these difficult days.
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